Me and You

Happiness is something we all chase but sometimes we haven’t been happy in so long that we just really don’t know what to do with it when it is staring us in the face.

When we are more afraid of what we will look like to everyone else rather than being truly happy do we really have our own best interest at heart.

Have we spent so much of our time making sure everyone else is satisfied, belly full, tucked in, pampered, that we have lost sight of our own genuine smile in the mirror.

We only have one life and if we live it for everyone else, was it ever really ours?

Love will pass you by if you take too long only pondering it.

This is real. This is destined. This is fate. Or are they only words with emptiness beneath them?

For every moment Ive lived without you,

My heart has called you home to me.

Are you here to answer?

Or to tempt me with what i cannot attain?

Does a hope exist?

I will bear it out to the edge of doom

You will have to love me or break my heart

There is no in between.

It’s not simple to say

That most days I don’t recognize me

That these shoes and this apron

That place and its patrons

Have taken more than I gave them

It’s not easy to know

I’m not anything like I used be, although it’s true

I was never attention’s sweet center

I still remember that girl

She’s imperfect, but she tries

She is good, but she lies

She is hard on herself

She is broken and won’t ask for help

She is messy, but she’s kind

She is lonely most of the time

She is all of this mixed up and baked in a beautiful pie

She is gone, but she used to be mine

It’s not what I asked for

Sometimes life just slips in through a back door

And carves out a person and makes you believe it’s all true

And now I’ve got you

And you’re not what I asked for

If I’m honest, I know I would give it all back

For a chance to start over and rewrite an ending or two

For the girl that I knew

Who’ll be reckless, just enough

Who’ll get hurt, but who learns how to toughen up

When she’s bruised and gets used by a man who can’t love

And then she’ll get stuck

And be scared of the life that’s inside her

Growing stronger each day ’til it finally reminds her

To fight just a little, to bring back the fire in her eyes

That’s been gone, but used to be mine